Hey beloveds!!!!

yeah..my beloveds...how r u gurls n guys doing?hmm...guess my previous posts r not too nice ya...but den that was how i feel n i'm not deleting it tho...=)..but i'm sure i'll see a rainbow from God after any drizzle in life..okie im happier today probably coz it's Thursday...u see Thursday is nearer to Friday yeah??RUVERNY!!!thanks for d wake up msg...this gurl messaged me early in d morning/....lovely msg but if i'm not having an early class then.....hmmm...anyway thanks a lot!went for class....played badminton with Nepthleen jus now n then she came up to my place n we hang out for a while...chit chatted n drank vitagen..hehe..then now i'm blogging...goin to wash some dishes n bathe then off for bible study...God bless you even as u do ur test tonight ,darl...He bless u with much wisdom n brings every formula n notes n facts tht u need into remembrance when u need it...O Lord be with him...n i know You will..hugsss....till then people....ru...r u feelings better>??

I'm tired...

i wish it's friday...i wish time could fly...but yet i'm always praying for you..that God will grant you lots of remembrance n wisdom even as u take ur exam tomorrow..His wisdom fills you...n His peace surrounds you..i wish i could be in d dark..when everything jus pause for d moment...i wish i don hv to receive those kind of messages...i wish n i wish..i dunno why did things end up this way..i've been sleeping a lot lately...good rest but yet what does it say??ru...i suppose u can guess it...n i'm planning to sleep again then only wake up later n study...is it possible for ur best friend to die when she's still alive?that memories of u n her will always remain but yet she's alive n dead...i don understand...life is full of risks...every decision u make u dont know where it'll go n right now in my life it's all in my hands...yet sometimes some ppl stops me from what i want....but yet it's freaky goin thru it all alone...i feel alone...silent cries...stress from everywhere...i'm goin to bed.......

I Miss....

you gurls.....Sara n Ru....d wonderful times we had...guess thinking bout u both can at least make me smile...=)..funny isn't it..probablt it's bcoz somehow i know u gurls will understand if i happen to pour ethin out..weird post i know...but i mean it!hv a lovely night beloveds!

I wished ethin was ........

just facts...haha..wat am i talking about...sometimes u wish u could say more but yet d situation doesn't allow...or probably u're just too afraid to add on more stress/hurts.....others wouldn't know how paralysed u feel....they think u're fine..well...i guess i'll just put it as a give n take thingy in life...sometimes u do wish life is just bout books..i wish i could just start all over...i'm just too weak to carry myself thru...yet at times like this He always reminds me that He'll carry me thru..oh what could i say ......d only word is vanity...it's only in Him you'll find satisfaction....u can go searching high n low in life...do the greatest thing,have ethin in d world..but like what King Solomon says it's vanity...am i crappin too much..it's just so hard to tell what's within me now....getting harder n harder....freaking me out at times..i'm sad..yes i am....that at times i don't know how to cry anymore...i know i cant be this way for long..then i'll pull myself up again.......i may lie,i may hurt those around me,i may act ridiculous,i may take whoever for granted...but yet why not try understanding me...why is it slaps from left,right n centre?why all d fake words...why d selfish desires,why is it that i can't even hv trust from those closest to me...what's d point then?yea what's d point...i see no point but yet that small little faith in me in 'me n them' keeps me goin...tho i may stumble n fall yet i'm sure that faith will still be there...i wish you could just take a lil more time to find out what's within me....try understanding things from my perspective...am i asking too much...yea..probably you have ur sets of wants too....what else can i ask...NOTHING!!!!!............

Sometimes.....

i wonder if i do really trust him...i know i should,i have to and deep down inside i really want...but yet sometimes i wonder if it's my doubts,insecurities or is it a fact.....he's d one who can make me so troubled yet someone who can make me freakin happy....dad...i'm lost...how come sometimes i don't understand you at all...at times i wish he could just read my blog...it's easier to type than speak what's within me...feelings where i just dunno how to tell.....anyway i wished friday comes faster.......goin for dental now......brb.....

Hope that this message bless anyone who's reading my blog...=)..

Specially dedicated to my loved ones,
Daddy,Mummy,Sis,Bro,Belovedssss-Darren,Freeda,Sara,Ruverny...lovely friends etc....keep soarin!!!!=)God bless you all in all ways.....hugsss
God Sees Glorious Things In You!


1 Samuel 16:77… For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.




Picture David when he was a shepherd boy. Many who knew young David in his pre-Goliath days would very likely have seen just an ordinary youth — one who lived at home with his parents and siblings, enjoyed the outdoors and loved music. But where others saw a typical teenager, God saw a king in young David. He saw David’s name being uttered in honour forever, for even the Lord Jesus is called the Son of David!
Picture Moses after he had settled down comfortably in the desert with a beautiful wife, lovely children and loving in-laws. He might have seen himself happily retiring in the near future. But God had bigger plans for Moses. God had big dreams for him. God saw the Red Sea opening before him and an entire Egyptian army being wiped out in his presence. God saw in him the deliverer of His people.
Now, step back a little less far in time with me. See a little boy standing alone during play time. Nobody wants him on their team because he is scrawny and seen as a weakling. As he grows into his teens, he suffers from an inferiority complex. He stammers and stutters so much that all his friends laugh at him. But today, he is the senior pastor of New Creation Church. Several times each week, he stands in front of a crowd of more than 13,000 people to preach. And he receives invitations worldwide to speak in churches and pastors’ conferences. There was no way I could have ever conceived in my mind what God saw in me in those early years and the dreams that He had for me.
Beloved, God does not see as man sees. God saw in fearful Gideon a mighty man of valour and called him so even when he was hiding from his enemies in fear. (Judges 6:12) God saw in young David a king and anointed him as one. (1 Samuel 16:10–13) God saw in meek Moses a deliverer and drew him from obscurity. (Exodus 3) Today, God looks beyond what man sees and says about you, and He has dreams for you that are bigger than you can imagine!

Here i am....once again...hehe..

i know this sounds weird...but i jus type wateva that comes into my mind..hmm..guess what i washed d toilet!LoL..wat a way to start a post..=p...also cleaned my room..jus a lil mess on my table but no probs ler coz i need those stuffs when i study...'cookies' i mean...=p...i'm putting on weight but am goin down....what am i crappin here?feeling sleepy coz i cried..yeah i did....yesterday n today...am tired of that ..but anyway there's improvement coz i don go bla blaing for hours...at least nowadays it's less than half an hour...okie pardon me ppl i know im crapping...=p...am listening to some lovely songs now..goin to do my work now....anyway to these ppl below....i wanna say THANK YOU!

Freeda : no words could be used to thank you for all that you've done in my life...really dunno what to say..sometimes i wish someone could write out my thoughts n feelings for me...n i guess only God can...but just wanna tell u that ur a jewel to my life...=)..

Ruverny : there u go lady!!!!hahaha ...miss those crazy times..but i guess we're gonna hv ball time tomorrow...uhh..dunno y when it comes to ur turn im feeling sleepy...well gurl..thanks a lotttttttt for always being there...listening to my craps...trying to knock senses into me tho sometimes it's so hard...n a million thanks for being a friend whom i can trust..who'll never judge me...=)...

Sara : i know this sounds weird...er..or u can say it's cute..haha.....where hv u been??i miss u!!!

Darren : i know ur pretty occupied with ur tests,lab reports,assignments etc...but jus wanna thank you that despite ur busy schdule u still hv time for me...=)...kerang bakar on me this time..hehe...hugssss..

hmm....n lil joshua...i don think he reads this tho...he's such a joy to my heart =)...praying always that God will take care of all these lovely ppl above,my family,their families, and that His love will melt away any stress or anything that we're facing right now...hv a lovely day...

Somewhere ....somehow...

you'll just happen to cross path with people of all kinds....n then they'll start to leave footprints in ur heart...i always like this phrase since young..it's rather meaningful i would say..n right now i'm in a middle of chapter 14 of standard costing n variances..taking a break..will cont more if i can take it...else im gonna sleep n cont tomorrow..but now i'm just having this feeling...a feeling where i miss d times we had............................................................................................................

Tennis Postponed

postponed to tomorrow 8am.wonder if ru can make it...but anyway THANK GOD for ethin...somehow when i woke up in d morn i felt rather troubled...probably i was figuring out how am i suppose to finish so many things today n i cant be delayin my books anymore...hv been taking a few days of rest n i got to continue studying=)...so i was jus telling God that i entrust all my plans to Him n all my worries,anxietys,joy,etc.....n also prayed for loved ones..hehe..n also ask Him to lead me n guide me as i go thru this day...guess what?i came bck from lecture...then was actually tired..so i blogged n plan my timetable for d next 2 n a half weeks.by d time i finish it was alr 3.20,bathe n ly on my bed...not realising it's time for badminton...met Nepthleen n Komathi...had a fun game..sweat a lot n when i'm goin off to my car with them..wanted to drive to tennis,it's so so windy...then i got a call from Mr Thor...tennis cancelled postponed to tomorrow...=)good also i can hv a fun game then come home n head off to my lecture at 11am.so right now i can blog again...errr jus a short one....n i'm studyin while restin...then i'm gonna bathe...if im tired i'll take a short nap n head off to fetch Aunty Sharon for bible study...u all may not undstand why i'm like so amazed but in conclusion when u surrender ur plans to the Lord nothing bad will happen...coz His plans for us are bigger n better than the best n biggest dreams we can ever think of...that's how much He loves us...anyway i'll end here....got to go wash my hair...time management huh?hehe..God bless u all with lots of love,joy n peace from Him....hv a lovely evening...n all d best for d one who's having test tomorrow!Blessings of the Lord crown you n His wisdom be upon you...His peace calms you down if ur nervous,n may He bring remembrance of all the materials you've studied whenever u need it...you're surely gonna do great! keeping you in prayers always...hv a lovely evening n night studying =)...bye ppl!

....Food.....

Food...i guess tht's d only word on my mind now..well there r a few others...went for class at 8.30-1pm...bought 2 slices of choc brownies from jenni's bakery...oh no!!!!!how much calories...gosh...n when i came bck i actually bought a packet of tomyam fried rice...n guess wat ppl i'm like almost done with it...what happened to me...why am i eating so much..besides that Ms Wong was like telling us bout ACCA!that's what my goal should be..yeah...not only that she was actually explaning what we're gonna do after completing certified accounting technician...she was like saying we are advisable to take maximum 4 papers coz it'll be really taxing...n next time in ACCA we're advisable to take 2 papers/sem...i really got to plan it well..but this sem itself i'm having 4 paper based exam n 1 comp based.startin now is not late but i really got burn whichever kind of oil in order to pass all of them or else i'm gonna get stuck..i would say she's really a good lecturer tho it's rather stressful being in her class...anyway it's for my own good...so thanks to her=p...planning to take a nap now then study a bit...got badminton at 4.15-5.15pm with Nepthleen n Komathi.then tennis at 6pm-7pm with Ruverny my buddy..hehe ...8.30 to 10pm bible study..wow really pack..n after bible study im gonna come bck n study chapter 14 of costing.before badminton i'll go thru finance..what was taught today....okie now got to go bathe n spend some time with God...have a lovely day people...Jesus loves u all n i love u all too.......keep soaring high above...u'll never know how high u can go....aim for d highest yeah!!!!!God bless u all...

Because He lives.....

i can see tomorrow,because He lives all my fears are gone..sorry ppl that i'm off like so many days..hehe...well went bck bm on friday n went for badminton with joshua,eugenie,pei theen,freeda n chuann yien..went for lok lok after tht=)...met up with jon,thirhu n omar..had a ramli burger..delicious..n since then i've been craving for it..erm..i shall not be so naggy...okie bout today i went to d education fair in traders hotel with iong ling...kind of sure bout what i'm gonna do but yet still waiting for d assurance ..erm dunno how to put it...d sense of peace from God i would say...tho goin to kl may b hard for some but yet i'll always keep in touch...hmm...shall not get into that...well cant wait for tennis tomorrow...n i'm amazed at myself coz i was freakin tired yesterday but i managed to study till 3am..haha...wonderin if i should study or take a nap...i feel awake right now..so i suppose i'm gonna study.....as i take every step in life,He will guide me n lead me..to You O Lord i surrender n entrust ethin to Thy loving hands,that You'll teach me Your ways n in ethin that i do may i glorify Your name=)...also do enlighten me bout what i should/shouldn't do...okie..i shall not be so complicated...hehe...anyway i dunno why but i'm happy!hehe...guess it's just d joy from within...n it's from Him..=)..there's more meaning in life when u plans ur ways n yet surrender it to the Lord...then when He convicts ur heart n u just feel d special,unspeakable joy n peace from within...tho u might not know what is it that u hv to do...but yet u know it's coming one by one...all d good things in life...indeed there's really a season for everything in this beautiful journey on earth....just like what King Solomon wrote in Ecclesiastes 3.....

To everything there's a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born,
And a time to die,
A time to plant,
And a time to pluck what is planted,
A time to kill,
A time to heal,
A time to break down,
And a time to build up,
A time to weep,
And a time to laugh,
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance,
A time to cast away stones,
A time to embrace,
A time to refrain from embracing,
A time to gain,
And a time to lose,
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away,
A time to tear,
And a time to sew,
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak,
A time to love,
And a time to hate,
A time of war,
And a time of peace....

Sometimes in life,you'll never know how much encouragement you can get till you really get them..somehow or rather this poster right in front of me means so so much to me...d words on it always encourages me n reminds me of His love for me...which will just put a smile on my face..knowing that His love will melt away ethin which is too hard for me..and His love will just bring clarity of mind,strength when i'm weary,peace when i'm troubled,faith n courage when i'm in place of fear...i know i've mentioned this b4 in my blog but i'm never bored of His love...for His love is the greatest above all...

-In Your love i shall rest,In You i shall place my trust-

HIS LOVE endures forever...strengthening me as i walk thru this beautiful journey of life...

He Is The God Of Your Valleys Too
	Hey ppl..i read this online in new creation church's website ..really encouraged by this short passage or article..hope it encourages all of u too...Have a lovely day ahead... 1 Kings 20:23 23Then the servants of the king of Syria said to him, Their gods are gods of the hills. Therefore they were stronger than we; but if we fight against them in the plain, surely we will be stronger than they.”
	In 1 Kings 20, we find the Syrians being defeated by the Israelites. Then, some of the Syrian king’s advisers gave the king what the thought was the reason for their defeat. They said that they had fought on the hills and lost because Israel’s God is the God of the hills. So if they were to fight the Israelites on the plains or in the valleys, they would win.What stupid advice! They thought that the God of Israel only helped His people up in the hills and mountains, and not down in the valleys. Now, mountains refer to our good times, and valleys, our bad times. Some people have this idea that God is the God of our good times, but He is not there when we are going through bad times. They think that He leaves us helpless in the valleys, especially when the troubles are of our own making. My friend, I want you to know that our God is the God of the mountains, but He is also the God of the valleys! He laid aside His crown of glory, His royal majesty and came down for us, stepping into a human body as a baby. He came down to where we were for the sole purpose of dying on the cross for our sins, so that He could bring us up to what the Father has for us at His right hand. He came down to crown us with glory and honour, to clothe us with robes of righteousness and make us His bride, sharing everything that He has with us. That is the grace of God. He came down to our valley. So whatever you are going through right now, know that God is right there in your valley with you. He is holding you in His arms and carrying you through the valley. Victory is already yours. Just as the Israelites were also victorious in the valley (1 Kings 20:28–29), so will you be because the God of the valleys is right there with you!

As for me,hmm..i guess it's a few days since i last blogged..things happen to be different n i'm really glad...Praise be to God who loves me so much..hehe...He sent loads of lovely people to my life..to advise me,encourage me n practically do anythin jus to make me feel better...suppose God must hv granted u all lots of wisdom n i'm sure He is crowning u all with loads of wisdom...also most of all to my most beloved Abba Father,nothing will satisfy my thirst except for You..n You alone..there's just a longing in every human for You..n tho i walk thru d valleys i shall fear no evil for You are with me,Your rod and Your staff they comfort me..had a lovely morning yest spending time with God..hehe...to many of u it may sound weird but it's amazing!i'm refreshed..dunno how to put it into words....one thing i realise when it comes to lovely things/events/feelings....anything...it's just so so hard to explain in words...anyway thanks a lot to Freeda,Ruverny n Darren...=)...oh yeah Sara..i miss u..haha...sound weird again huh?but seriously gurl...let me know when ur more free so at least we can catch up...take ur time...i know ur busy...n ur in my prayers...To all the people i mentioned above,not forgetting my lovely family..dad,mum,bros n sis...i pray that God will cover you all with His divine protection,grant you lots of favour among ur frens,colleagues,anyone around u...for His you're highly favoured by Him..n His unconditional love enfolds around u all all d time....thayt we may learn how to love one another more n more as d days pass by.....i enjoyed tennis today!looking forward to d weekend to go hiking n play badminton with my lil joshua n couzs...till then i got to study alr...Blessed night to u all!!!

Resting In HIS finished work...

John 14:2727Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.




The night before He died, Jesus gave His peace to His disciples — “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you…” This peace is not just for His disciples, but also for us. Today, we have His peace.
The moment you believe in Jesus Christ, He who is the Prince of Peace comes to live inside you. And when the Prince of Peace resides in you, every blessing that you will ever need pertaining to your soundness and wholeness is already inside you.
“Pastor Prince, if this is true, then why do I still see problems in my health, finances, family and relationships?”
The answer is a troubled heart. That is why after Jesus said, “Peace I leave with you…” He said, “… Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”
A troubled and fearful heart works like fingers that clamp down hard on a water hose. The supply of water is flowing from the tap, but little or nothing is coming out at the other end of the hose. God’s ever-present supply of blessings towards you is like the water flowing freely from the tap. But you don’t see the blessings when you allow your heart to be gripped by worry or fear.
So when fearful, anxious thoughts come, remind yourself of Jesus’ words: “… Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”
Even when things appear to get worse, say, “Lord, I refuse to worry about this. In the midst of all this I see the finished work of Christ. He said, ‘It is finished!’ So, my debts are finished. My child is healed. My house is sold. I will let not my heart be troubled by these things.”Beloved, I cannot “let not” for you. Your family and friends cannot “let not” for you. Only you can “let not your heart be troubled”. So guard your heart from being troubled. You don’t have to guard your career, reputation, children or even health. When you guard your heart, God will guard everything else for you!Even when things appear to get worse, say, “Lord, I refuse to worry about this. In the midst of all this I see the finished work of Christ. He said, ‘It is finished!’ So, my debts are finished. My child is healed. My house is sold. I will let not my heart be troubled by these things.”
Beloved, I cannot “let not” for you. Your family and friends cannot “let not” for you. Only you can “let not your heart be troubled”. So guard your heart from being troubled. You don’t have to guard your career, reputation, children or even health. When you guard your heart, God will guard everything else for you!

A new Day ahead....

woke up at 7.21am this morning knowin i'm gonna b late for tennis ..called ru n guess wat?she's just woke up...well i went for tennis alone..but it was fun...jus tht miss ru's presence..haha...well nothin much to type...just tht in You alone i put my trust for You are my Conforter,my Saviour,My Love,my Strength...guide me with Thy gracious hand...surround me with Thy love n grant me Thy wisdom tht in all that i do may i glorify Thy name..In You alone i will rest,In You alone i find my joy...in you alone i'll find that peace that i've been searching for...that's when i finally rest in Your finished work n when i trust in Thy amazing n unconditional love for me...Youhave made the heavens n earth by Thy great power and outstretched arm,There's nothing too hard for You..In returning n rest i shall be saved,In quietness and confidence shall be my strength..Isiah 30...then i realised many times i'm just making things complicated by involving my emotions in it..tho many times i try to rise up again,one day i'll be going down...but this is not stopping me from rising again...for He will make me soar like an eagle above the storms in life..O Lord,it's you that i long after..renew my strength that i may rise above all that's before me...for in You love i'll rest,in You loving arms i'll find comfort.........

Day by day.....

it's jus almost d same...like i said yesterday..there's just so much within me..well..guess this place is really where i like to bla coz i'm lazy to write..ru's talking to me on d phone..hehe..thanks girl...as for me..i'm just exhausted..oh Lord when is this gonna go??i'm tired...i really dunno how to pour all that's within me..n this girl is asking me a weird question...she went like which land am i in now??hehe n i said i'm in SPACE!!!!!i wish...coz i can just let go of ethin....u'll only feel better when u've overcome wat u need to...we always look for a different place...it doesn't really work but it's only when we overcome what we need to...running away will never solve a prob...but wat's it that i got to overcome??ru:right now my blog sounds yucky..haha...i've got to make God my love ground..d ground where i'll feel safe..oh no..tan yih ling....wat's wrong with you..anyway i really thank God for d ppl that He's brought into my life...okie i know i'm jumping from one thing to another...i'm try my best not to expect anything from anyone...tho i know humans do expect but like i said i'll try...God God..i love you..haha...sorry ppl who r reading my blog...i know it's yucky...hehe...u ppl hv a wonderful time yah....

Finally....

i've finished checking some accounts tht dad asked me to check..uhhh...i took like 2 n a half hours...that's bcoz i haven't been checking it for more than 2 months..got to call up d clerk as there r some probs...well now...am i suppose to sleep early or should i study...hmm....i wonder..probably i'll pack y stuffs first then i'll decide....wil be leaving pg early tomorrow as i' having lunch with dad at sakae sushi..supposed i'll have enough receipts to get a prviledge card.went with Darren that day...tot it's enough alr but they told me it's d amount b4 tax....so i'm still short of like 50 +...alright one thing i'm gonna do b4 i go to bed is plan for d week..hehe...really excited coz i really wanna fulfill all dat i've planned...prbably this is something that i can look forward to...as in when i've fulfilled it i'll be happy..=)...uhhh..thinkin bout my paper on fri makes me stress...why is tht so....well well..i shall not blog anymore...time to at least get a chapter done by tonight....tho im a lil slepy n tired...but im sure i can do it....k ppl...hv fun....n God's blessings crown u all...uhh...i really miss sitting in His presence.....=p....

within me....

.....is just so much that's so hard to be described by words..am i getting emotional??hehe...nahh i won't allow myself to...=)..woke up at almost 11 n i realised it's too late for church so i slept again..=x.. n was awaken by a sms at 11.15 by Darren..packed my stuffs,listen to some songs n left for Queen's street to get nasi kandar for my dad...was actually craving for ice-cream but i'm afraid he'll be waiting for me...reached home n guess wat?he's sleeping...so i had my lunch...ate really a lot..n called ru after that...asked her for hiking..n i dozed off..dad woke me up later.both of us we're really crapping a lot today...having fun...well Dad,i did really enjoy ur company...!!!!...=)..he was so curious to know who i was on d phone with...=p..n then later he asked me for hiking...then i called ru n she said she's in front of my house...so 3 of us went for hiking..=)...b4 that dad was talking to ru while drinkin his tea..n as usual i'll b finding for food...we left for a hike around 4.45pm..came bck around 6..then ru n i went to swensen for coffee....hey gurl thanks a lot for accompanyin me for d hike yah!looking forward to tennis with you on tuesday!we did talked...something i found out bout myself while i was jus trashin things out wif ru..my fears..hehe but anyhow i'm jus really gonna push myself coz my education will be with me for life..humans can never gv me that guarantee..well i know this is one of my fears,fear of loosing ppl....loosing wat i hv..fear of things changing...but with d strength from God i'm able to adapt to it...as i'm His precious one=)..n i really dunno wat to say ler....there's just so much in me but im lazy to type...prob coz i stil hv lots of stuffs to complete..anyway 's rather sad seeing mum so tired..everyone seems to b having so much of thots n sadness in them but wat am i gonna do to help...help myself first i guess....n i really cant get involve...it's way too much for me....i'm exhausted......till then ppl..i've got to go do my stuffs alr.......The Lord grant us a blessed week ahead!live it to d fullest n gv ur best in all that u do!His peace b with you

Aussie..

uhh..i really really miss melbourne..looking thru my pics jus now...thinking back,it's really a wonderful time i had with mum,grandma n bro...such an amazing time...would definitely wanna visit melbourne again with my loved ones....it'll b a dream come true..hehe..coz dad's definitely not goin to let me go with d fact tht i've been there twice..but i love d food..love d place ,love d market...ethin...hehe...just that probably d currency exchange is high..hehe...n bout my books..uhhh....having a hard time..tho i manage to finish 2 chapters...2 more to go but somehow i feel lazy...feel like doin other stuffs...my mind is like full of d word costing,cost units,absorption costing,marginal costing....oh no.....i miss my bro....my elder bro..hehe.im jus so filled with memories now...memories of d family together,d lovely n wonderful time...i'm filled with diff emotions now...tho i try not to b so emotional these days...feel like goin out for chic wings...somehow or rather i wish i'm more discipline...okie i got to push myself....

books again....=)

books again...gotta enjoy it right?hmm..went for tennis this morning...enjoyed it tho i'm just learning..hehe...miss badminton alr...was thinkin of goin bck bm n take joshua for badminton...but i don think so as my exam is coming n i guess i'll jus stay bck n study...just wash my hair too...=)..went for bfast with ru then came home n wash my clothes...now now i'm gonna study again...Lord help me,grant me lots of understanding,wisdom n knowledge,remembrance too...thank You Lord...be my teacher ya...=p...okie till then for now...i realise i hv many fears...listed it down this morning actually when i just sitting in God's presence...enjoying His loving presence..then i was reminded...i got to rest in God's love..which is patient n understanding,tender and kind,brings clatiry of mind,rest to those who r weary,help to those who r helpless,renewed strength too,melts away all my tension,worry n stress,gives me faith n courage to continue taking each step towards d glory of His name,His love takes away all my fears...i shall not put my security in anything but God n God alone...for like the wisest man on earth said,all is vanity...n d fear of God is the beginning of knowledge...other fears will just end up in stress....so rest in His loving arms gurl...God loves you more than you can ever imagine..His plans for you r greater than the greatest plan ur mind can think of....praise Him n honor Him....kk....DAddy in Heaven i've been talking bout u a lot huh?till then k....now i got to study n You got to accompany me n help me study....love you...n love all my loved ones too....hugssss..hv an amazing day ahead

Toughts...

...feeling rather disturbed..probably coz i'm not spending time with my books..sent my car for repair this morning..costed me like RM1600...goodness..sometimes i wonder dad's worker took my car to where for repair..i'm gonna really take good care of this car..fm ow onwards..=)..mum just called..wanted to ask me to go to Old Town for lunch..planning to leave for penang at 3 that's if my car is ready by then..im really gonna push myself like crazt this week...no more compromise n excuses form myself..im sure God is behind me..no more unnecessary thoughts or things...i don't think i'm sweepin things under d carpet...looks like it's more of sweepin all dat's under d carpet n all that i cann see all off n dumpin it to d rubbish bein..haha....anyway i received a real sweet sms last night..haha...=)..honestly i feel like slapping myself a few times...i know this sounds weird but a lil pain motivates me ..hehe...unique huh?=p....okie im stinkin coz i was like packin my stuffs n cleaning..gonna go bathe n then do my work...NO MORE PROCRASTINATION...listenin to christmas songs now...really nice...i'm missing xmas...wishing tht i could just visit a place that has snow this xmas...=p...k..got to go.....hv a lovely b blessed day ahead.....

Home alone...

Well actually i' not alone..there's like grandma n my maid=)...lil joshua is in rasa sayang with my uncles,aunts n couzs..mum is visiting her friend,dad is busy...me...hmm..well just came bck from hiking with ms ooi,freeda,chuann yien n hooi theng..didn get some nice news tho..sometimes i wonder why is ethin getting so complicated.tho i try to b simple n not make life that complicated but things around still do go that way...felt like goin to swensens for d sticky chewy choc but am wonderin who to go with..actually restin then im gonna bathe n i think studying is still my choice...many seem to gv me a weird look when i say im gonna study...but come on gurl...it's worth..haha..at u God is proud of u...daddy n mummy will b happy n it's ur future!thanks for those who r behind me!buck up pig..haha...am i calling myself tht??prob too many ppl around me is calling me that..hehe...anyway i think i'll hv some time with God while showerin...sounds weird?well He's a loving Daddy..can talk to him while i shower right...gonna really enjoy my bathe...listening to love songs now...dunno why i like love songs nowadays..prob it's rather simple n lovely..n it's all bout love...not forgettin to thank God for His unconditional love towards me,my family,friends n all loved ones..Without His love i'm sure we won't able to love many...n Lord guide me each second in my life..it may seem hard but i'm sure with You guiding me,leading me n holding me even as i take each step...it'll not b too hard...well when it's to hard for me You'll be carrying me right?hehe..That's just how good n amazing God is..have faith in Him...for only faith pleases God..in times when i feel down it's You who gives me strength,whenever i feel lost it's You who lights up my path with lovely ppl...Lord there's no words enough to thank You....soothen my back n hands n all d muscles ya...anyway i'm really happy tht i played badminton yesterday n went hiking today...tennis will be next Tuesday..looking forward to my lectures,studying time,badminton,tennis n ethin...haha....every second with God too...talked to CY bout rangers camp....hope it'll not clash wif my exam..so excited for cf n rangers camp....okie...im goin to go bathe now....hv fun ppl....rejoice for the Lord is good...n spread love all around ya!!!=).......