Things i miss at this moment...

I know im supposed to be studying right now but i just thought of dropping a post here...i was just reading through Mei Lin's blog before this...a post about CF Camp 2007...i missed it this year due to exams..i miss those lovely times.. i shall get bck to my books..hehe...will blog after exams la..

I Feel WEIRD ppl....

Yes, indeed i feel weird..guess it's finally hitting me that Ru's not here..haha...i'm sorry girl, i shouldn't feel this way..i hate it when i don't hv the urge to study like last sem...wat's the prob with me i wonder.. pg feels so quiet..only cheryl is here..err n probably my bunch of friends who are studying like crazy..i miss playing sports but do you know at times when u do it all alone u feel like u wished someone could be there..yeah get a coach n burn my pocket huh?? i cant afford that.. i miss my bunch of girl friends, n i guess my retainers aint helping me in any way...ppl hate braces but i'm okie with it..ppl hate the pain but to me it's not too bad still bearable....but retainers sucks..i wish i could get rid of it but would i wan to waste my dear daddy's money all these while n my time just to see my teeth going out of shape again?? had a fun time with cheryl n her mum at least i wasn't alone.. im hating goodbyes now.. i'd seriously rather not send ppl off..i wished books can be friends tho...haha...but they're just sheets of paper compiled together...i know im mixing every single thought of mine..sorry readers..okie now i hv like this law, tax n performance mgmt textbooks, exam kits n past year questions waiting for me...i wanna drown myself studying!!!!!!! i seriously want to....but sometimes law piss me off...simple terms has to be explain in such beautiful words for wat?? awww... i wish me n my bunch of girl friends can just go n feast in rasa sayang which we talked bout it but never did....ppl wat is there in US....okie i know im crappy here...don mind me..i need to get it all out n get bck to my books....i can't be scribbling all these on my books/notes/ answers...haha..well well..i remember something..someone i missed... God..i could start spending time with Him again...sometimes when u get so caught up with ethin tht's happening u tend to miss d most wonderful stuffs....i shall let Him strengthen me once again n for He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength, those who wait upon Him shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run n not be weary, they shall walk n not faint..

- You have granted me life n favour, and Your care has preserved my spirit Job 10:12-

and God is able to make all grace abound to you, that you, always having all sufficiency in all things may have an abundance for every good work 2 Corinthians 9:8

Be blessed in every way ppl...The Lord makes His face shine upon you n be gracious to you, the Lord lift up His countenance to you n gives you peace.....

hugsssssssssssss

Back home....

I think i'm getting back to blogging but then still i won't do it daily coz i don't think i hv tht much time and i'll only blog when i want to..esp when i'm in d emo mood...right now i'm not emo anymore..glad in a way that i can get back to my books n start studying for finals again, stress is building up but i'm able to go thru it with God. i'm going to continue going for yogafrom tomorrow onwards, stopped for like half a month..hehe..

Wanted to blog since just now, but mum wants to use d comp, well now that i've typed a paragraph, she wants to use again but then i told her to let me finish it off first, she's okie with it..so here it goes, Darren went back to Malacca this morning, went for bfast with his family n then we sent him to d bus station, bump into Soo Heng there. I drove back to my apartment to bathe then i was supposed to meet my family for lunch at autocity. I felt that penang was so quiet, he was with me for d past few days and i would say i had fun..hehe..i guess penang seems to be quiet also due to Ru leaving to the States. I wept only when she went in a sobbed a little more during dinner but i really thank God that Darren was with me..after she left i was trying not to think bout anything as it was easy coz Darren was around but then after he left reality strikes again..i knew i needed sometime to get over all that emo mood, so at times like tht i love to sleep. Came home after lunch, watch a movie for a while then i took a nap.. Dad woke me up for hiking but i wasn't in the mood, tried to sleep further till mum called n ask me to join her for grocery shopping. at first i said no but i called her bck n said i wanted to join coz i was thinking i had enough of sleep n enough of being in the emo mood..time to get back to wat i need to do..we went to sunway carnival mall, i didn feel perfectly well but i knew time is all that i need...bought dinner for grandpa..well well sometimes i wished i could do more for this dear man, this precious grandpa of mine. i spilled some stuff on the table and it so happened tht my aunt was doing some paper work on the table but thank God i didn get d gravy on any of her stuffs, then i quickly went into the kitchen to get d cloth to wipe it off n i heared aunt raising her voice at grandpa coz of d gravy thingy.grandpa actually took d bowl off n somehow d gravy dripped on the floor, i think aunt should talk to him that way..i felt it right in me..i feel saddened by the whole thing..i wished i could make him happy..he replied aunt with ' u don't have to raise ur voice'... my heart gets really soft when it comes to old ppl especially..n ru i miss you, i'm trying not to think but i know it'll somehow slowly hit me esp when i wanna talk to u...hehe..till then i've got to go study d....will blog again when i'm in the mood..anyway i got crocs slippers from my darl..=) that's my belated bday gift..thanks darl!i love him...hehe...till then , to all who is reading this i pray that the Lord will bless you in every way!

Thoughts of mine....

Woke up this morning and i looked out the window it's bright! The next thing that crossed my mind was Oh no i didn set my alarm clock d night b4...am i late...well thank God it's 7am but i hv to reach college at 7.30am. Manage to get there in time..it was fun but a lil tiring tho...after the whole explorace thingy a bunch of us went to kim gary n guess wat?everyone ordered d same dish..haha..had some chit chats here n there..as usual Cristin always tell us stories that'll make us laugh....it's really entertaining... sent them bck to college n i drove straight home...i was really very tired..reached home saw my dad n told him i need to take a nap..went straight to my room, didn't bother bathing tho i'm a clean freak at times..went straight to bed...till may win called me ,rejected her call n continued sleeping but i couldn't..woke up called her bck......then.........it striked me again that ru is leaving for real....n it's going to be next friday..means i hv like less than a week with her..girl if u must know it's kinda affecting me to be truthful...many may ask why but this girl has been there thru thick n thin...the tears n joy we shared..are beyond words of description...n one by one of these dear ones are leaving...gosh... first was sara, then cheryl, then christy n now it's ru...n yet the closest one to me..i never knew this will affect me that much...but it is seriously affecting me..true friends do really exist n they're really hard to fine...harder than pearls/diamonds...hahahha...well anyway this reminds me of nian ning..we we're friends , quite close when we went to korea, we even stayed in the same room n hang out together..but i never really kept in touch after tht except thru some msgs here n there...sometimes u realise how much u didn't do n time doesn't really allow you to do it anymore..n ppl if ur reading this, ru has been like a friend where she puts friends b4 herself...she puts her loved ones before herself..she will go all way out to do anything for you..like there's this time when i got sick n i was in penang and she drove all the way bought me porridge along the way n drove bck to bm after tht...seriously la where do u find friends like tht...n she's like d closest since high sch...the bfast we had in d sch canteen , d breaks, d meals all around bm, the crazy times we had during tution , d lovely friends she introduced to me, d way she told me wat i did was right, d support, d trust, the love ...okie i know i'm really emo now but...i cant help...just let me type it all out k...i wouldn't want to keep it then see her n start exploding..hahahah...d sleepovers, d crazy times with sara, d stuffs i tell her , d middle in the night calls n sobbings...d way she sounded when she knew that something was going to start between darren n i, the night when i called n told her tht i'm getting into a rship n d excitement we share..haha ...the way she supported n understood n stood by all the time..d secrets we share..i hope i won't break down in the airport...hahaa....being someone soft inside n kinda hard outside i hope i can control ...then i realise she understands me better than anyone does..d amount of things i share with her, sometimes to d extend that i'm so afraid she'll get sick of my same old stories...but yet she says she's okie...n she's always there..anyway gurl i'm really glad for you, glad that you're leaving for US..u have all my best wishes n prayers..do well n make sure very well there...excel like nobody's business k!praying that God will be with you always protecting you from all evil harms n danger,guiding you through every single step n decision you make n showering you with lots of love, joy n peace....i'll always be here if u need someone to talk to..c u soon..hahahaha...