Here is love,vast as the ocean...

that's d song that i'm listening to now..reminds me a lot of 2 years back...i think it's may 2005....anyway i locked myself out of my room with my house n room key in my room..n it's d second time coz i did that yesterday n i manage to open but not for today...so i was in the dining area till 2.30pm when sis came n open d grill door for me then i called the lock smith..it's was sickening coz i really wanted to go for my lectures..but thanks to a few people who kept me occupied with msgs..things is not easy n i wish i dont have emotions..haha..okie i'm crapping..well i manage to study but yet i'm not satisfied..guess sometimes i expect too much n i stress myself out of ethin even b4 i could do anything..that's bad...feeling empty..never really like to listen to songs i've heard b4..hehe i just clicked onto another song tho it's sung by d same person...Pastor Prince.hehe..talking bout him i miss Singapore..i'm definitely going there soon!probably i should jus ask that for my bday gift..=)..it's sickening when things turns out shitty between best friends..even if it's just close friends..once u we're the bestest frens but in just a glimpse you've became strangers...Lord why does all these has to happen?yeah i wish n it's a wish that life could really be just beautiful with every beautiful thing in it...why can't things be simple...i'm searching..wish someone could jus talk to me now n talk sense into me or wateva...there r just so many questions in me..i know not all can be answered but at least one or two...it's gonna do me much good...i'm sick of all my emotions...all d previous posts bout how i feel...yeah i do jump from one thing to another...frens first...when i felt i've troubled one too much i tend to look for another..n when i felt i've troubled all of them i came to my blog..right now i feel i've typed too much in my blog...n im looking for somewhere else..=)...feeling vulnerable i guess coz i was never like this..i used to be a strong gurl..a gurl who knows what she wants n where she's going...n she knows she'll get there...many said i've changed..good n bad ways...i dunno who i am....but only His beloved child that's all d assurance i have right now..but yet i've failed him so many times...my lovely frens around me...i know u all hv heard enough of all these...im tired what more to say u all...im sorry for all these...i just got to pull myself up...i dunno how but i will n i am going to....it's freakin hard...hate it when i feel vulnerable...someone even said i've died...have i really changed that much??