cloudy dayssss....

wished it would rain...im currently in Malacca..hehe..wanted to go for bak kut teh but it was closed so settled for beef koay teow instead..Ru..how r u doing?n sara i bet you're having loadds of fun....i slept so much ..wouldn't wake up if my mum didn call me..n im feeling sleepy again...lots of thots running around tho..yet only God can handle ethin...praying n just surrendering it to Him..hehe..gonna go read d bible now...

Bday with mua lovely friends....

..some lovely friends of mine decided to go out n celebrate my bday..hehe..met ru at queensbay n accordingly sara wasn't there yet...then we went n walk around n met sara at sakae sushi....n guess who was there with her???there!!this guy in d photo below..=)thanks to these 2 for d lovely surprise...n darl i was really happy that u're bck tho it's only for a day...thanks for coming bck despite ur extremely busy schedule..n also thanks to Sara for d idea n such a wonderful surprise tho ur couz kind of leak it out....prob he didn jus tht i was smart=)..hehe jus jk....n ru..thanks for d thought of celebratin my bday with me...n also to serena n alvin thanks for d company...i did hv a wonderful time with all of you... i dunno why out of all pics i actually posted this one....wonderin if u'll kill me..LoL...thanks again darl!

me n ruverny...=)

that's a first candle i took out with my mouth....9 more to go!!!

was asked to make a wish..but i made many!!!!

serena n sara...sweet!

ruverny n sara.....stop grinning too much u both!!hehehe

this lovely couple...adorable aren't they??

*thanks a lot to all mentioned above.....for ur thoughts n ethin........=)truly appreciated...God bless all of you abundantly..His love surrounds you all always!*

Bday dinner at TGI

Here r some pics of my family n i+ ruverny in TGI....on 18th of April...my blessed bday...hehehe=)...thanks daddy for d meal..i know it cost u a lot...n also thanks to sis n chun leng for d cake...ru thanks for coming...im sure we enjoyed ur company..n d ppl in TGI for singing for me...n also telling me im a year older but yet im still young!!!erm...thanks to Darren for d bouquet of flowers..i was eating my my hands d whole night..haha... Grandma n me.....=)

Daddy n me...i love him!!!=)thanks for d meal yah..n d bucksss...hehehe.....Muacks*

that's all of us minus ru....n minus my beloved mum...she was in bali...

okie..this is my finished plate of ribsss....left with bones i would say

that's Ruverny cutting our ribs..i mean d meal we share k..it was DELICIOUS!!!

sis's barbeque steak i think...look my my baby joshua in half...he's adorable right?=)

this is grandma's fish fillet..i forgot d name too but i ate half of it tho..

Daddy's lamb dunno wat....forgot d name..i like d mash potatoes n wild mushroom in it...

my bday cake from my precious family=)...indeed a really BLESSED BDAY! got this bouquet on my bday..=) thanks ya darl..

Rain dropsss......

k...it's kind of drizzlin now...jus came bck from penang...jus fixed d new speakers i bought for Joshua..he loves it!went for sakae sushi,new zealand natural n some hawkers food with freeda.. while we were sitting there eating our ice-creams,we ordered an orange juice too....they don actually add any sugar or water into d juice..haha...n freeda was counting how many oranges they put into d juicer...k..after tht went n get oven toaster for mum....wanted to go for a massage that we were suppose to go since months ago..we jus walked in like tht...n there's no slot for us...so we made an appointment for next thursday!!yay!! err....then head off to town to change money...she's flying off to aussie next week.....so many ppl flying off...thank God ru is still around..LoL....then we were finding for a place to eat.....went to hardwicke house....hmmm...we were like dressed casual..haha....n i met an old fren there....but then we decided to come out n go for some hawker food....LoL...coz we're just not prepared for fine dining....sorry ya dear!anyway thanks to Jon,Thirhu,Pastor Julie,Hannah,Uncle Patrick n Aunty Aliciafor d wish on my bday....it's like two days ago n i cant remember who wished me...oh yeah i'm amazed that fren of mine whom i met today still remembered my bday..hahaha...errr....n thanks to Daddy for d meal...ru thanks for coming...n thanks to sis n chunleng for d cake....it was really a great meal...nicer if mum is around to join us....okie..im extremely sticky now...gonna go bathe...will blog more tomorrow....c yah ppl..hv a blessed night.....hugssssss

My Burfday....

doesn't feel like bday...hehehhee....but anyway looking at d flowers made me smile..err..thanks to all who wished me at 12...that's to Darren,Freeda,Chui Chui,Ruverny,Amanda,6th Aunt,sis,Kau fu cai..Nepthleen....Ms Ooi...=)...im gonna check dad's co's accounts now...while waiting for Joshua to finish tution n we'll head off to TGI...actually im looking forward to goin to New Zealand natural rather than TGI...hehe...oh yeah..thanks piggie for d lunch .... don't worry u stll owe me swensens..hehehehe...n lots more..LoL....have a lovely day ppl...

Prezzies....

woke up at 6.50am for tennis...that's early..hehe..then i went for bfast in pulau tikus as usual...head off home to bathe...copied my phone pics to my laptop..n went for class...had lunch with friends as usual..d whole day in class i was kind of restless...well probably coz i got something to do after class..that's to collect a bouquet of flowers...d sender couldn't get d florist to send it coz d receiver is packed with errands to run for these 2 days...hehe...so d sender got no choice but to tell d receiver there's a bouquet of flowers for her n she got to collect it..sweet huh??hehe...thanks anyway..huggssssss..tho ur miles away yet im smiling even right now..hehe...okie ru n sara's probably gonna start grinnin...LoL..came bck to bm...saw a purple envelope on my table..it's from Freeda..RM100 sakae sushi's voucher inside!!!...time to feast but then still...wish she could go with me..okie that kind of made me a lil emotional...not as tearin...but..okie..next...i sat by my bed n i saw a wrapped up box..some chinese words...i dunno how to read ler....only a few words....well i know it ended with from....someone who loves you...yeh..i love you too...this is my 6th aunt..d closest aunt to me..she's never failed to give me bday gifts every year...n im gonna make sure i do something different this year for her...sometimes i wish i could do more...she took care of me sicne young....got a card from sis,her bf,joshua n 'naughty' daddy..that's what he wrote in the card....well mum is in bali now...missin her a lot..dad is in kl for some business n sis is in kl too for some stuffs ler....tonight's left with me n joshua...this bday is really different from the rest..even a month ago i could feel it alr....how different..well i dunno how to describe it...probably it's just different from the rest....u know every year i wish my bday will never end..hehe...thank God it's only 17th today...but then i guess pressies are almost all...=x.....probably wishes will come tomorrow...oh yeah not forgetting my lovely friends..ru n sara...asking me out for dinner...thanks gurls!saturday k....hehe...guess it's best for both of u as finals will be over...n im going for TGI tomorrow night...it's on dad...till then..im hungry....got to go....hv a lovely day ppl

Ice CReams....

guess that's wat's on my mind coz i've been eating lots of ice-creams these few days..Thursday i had New Zealand Natural,Friday i had Haagen Daaz n Baskin Robbins,Saturday which is yesterday i had Baskin Robbins again...hehehe..n right now im craving for sakae sushi...should i go?hmmm..had a fun time with Joshua yesterday..brought him to buy a new pencil box,then for BR....Darren joined us for BR...n each of them ordered a two scoops waffle thingy...i forgot wat wad dat called....n joshua couldn finish..Darren was kind of coughing so guess who had d biggest portion??hehe..oh no im getting bck my flu...wad else to update huh?cant wait to meet up both my dearies....hehe...u know who u r .......it's not tht it's coz it's my bday dinner...but it's more like we haven't had time catchin up....missin u gurls a lot...=)...alright...now i got to go down n check if joshua left his pencil box in my car....take care ppl!!!God's love enfolds around u all.....

A sense of joy..=)

...guess i'm living up to my name..hehe..well..there's a story behind d name Joy tho..just read thru my post yesterday..really encouraging=)...was n am listening to Pastor Prince's cd...title of d cd is Our Lord loves to give....in Him alone a trust,in Him alone i'll commit ethin to...yeha i'm in love..hehe..human's love is limited but the love of the Lord is wider than the ocean...that no words can describe....that's unconditional love...n in life when we find it so hard to love some people,that's when God puts His love in us n suddenly we just find that it's not that hard after all..thanks be to God for His love..when u really feel just a glimpse of His love...you'll melt...i mean seriously melt..His love can melt hardened hearts,heal broken rships,n anything u can ever mention....for He is GOD....my day is okie...fine..went to dad's factory at 8.15am..settled some stuffs there n i did study a bit...left for pg...on d way i dropped by sri rambai market to get some stuffs..then went to coll .....had lunch with Nepthleen,Komathi n Irnani..went for a movie with Nepthleen n Komathi...it's yucky..then came home n clean my room...gonna study now...hv a lovely night ppl...n to those who r having exams soon...esp sara n ru...God bless u both with lots of wisdom n all that you need..keeping u both in prayers always...take care gurls!luv u both..hehe

It made me smile....=)

woke up at 7.25am..haha n tennis is at 7.30am....this is d first time ru is earlier than me!!good work gurl....but then still i woke u up right ....hmm...but then thanks for coming coz of me...thank u so so much!!i enjoyed tennis...might jus ask sir to play with me tomorrow...that's if he's free...=)..came home n bathe...i dunno why i don't feel that's it's such a rush today.....went for my 11am class..i'm punctual...hehe...i always like this lecture n d lecturer too...TAX...went to d bank at 1...goodness d queue was so freakin long..hoping that i could get thru...but.......there's like 20 ppl in front of me...when i left there's still 14 ppl in front of me....that's around 45minutes...i wonder why these ppl go for lunch at such a time...hmmm...walked bck to coll...had an extra class till 3....tax again...after class i wanted to ask d lecturer something actually...but then b4 i could she asked me am i a Christian..hehe=)..i said YES!!!!! then she was talking to me for like 40 minutes....that was a nice sharing session....got lots of encouragement from her.. she told me bout her days in UK,how she accepted the Lord n that the Lord is the only One who can fill the void in every single human...tho we may hv things,people or wateva in our lives....there'll be a time when u just come to a point where u feel so empty...my previous posts...i talked bout happiness...well true happiness is in the Lord....i did experience it b4....it was really a joy that u can never describe....flows out of you n it'll bless d rest around you...for God's blessings always overflows...then we talked bout life...bout college...talking bout it i can still feel dat sense of encouragement...well...thanks to GOD...He always brings ppl to our lives....i know He knows all that's in me...n indeed He does...only He knows wat's within me..it may not b somethin special to anyone who hears me talking bout this but to me....this incident shows me how much God loves me...that He still cares so much...that He knows how much i long for Him...how much i long to rest in Him n to dwell in His presence,wanting Him to be in every single part of my life,in my studies,my family,my relationships,my friendships...ethin...every part of my life...Lord...u heard that huh?hehe...I love you so much...i cant wait for something great to happen...this verse keeps on coming to me...He gives power to the weak,And those who have no might He increases strength,Even the youths shall faint n be weary,And young men shall utterly fall,But those who wait n hope on the Lord shall renew their strength; They shall mount up like eagles,They shall run n not be weary,They shall walk n not faint....Isaih 40:29-31......uhh...such an encouraging verse...when God gives u surprises or even when u feel/see a glimpse of His glory, or feel a glimpse of His love or even joy or peace...u can jus keep smiling every second..even in ur sleep...hehe...n u feel like u wanna tell d whole world how u feel but sometimes no words can describe how u feel....that's how special i feel now....i know this sounds kiddy...but i wish i'm in His loving arms now...so comforting..hehe....i'm getting really mushy here..with God=x.....d book i read last weekend encouraged me a lot too...it's all about the book of Ecclesiastes......yeah n after my chat wif d lecturer,i walked out of the college smiling...even till right now....i wanna feel His presence more each day.....alright...i'm gonna go read my bible now....actually i'm waiting for sara to finish class...hoping that she's free.....she's busier than d prime minister....LoL.....k ppl...hv a lovely n blessed day ahead.....hugssss to everyone...esp my loved ones.......

Weekend....

....had a lot of time catching up with Iong Ling,Shea Speare,Soo Heng,Roy n Radiance.. went out for coffee on fri night,then to d beach on saturday..bought lots of dvds too..=)...guess i need those as exams r coming soon...=)..so tempted to watch something tonight but i'm just too sleepy..i think i'm gonna sleep earlier as i'm having tennis tomorrow morn..oh yeah...i got a speaker from d pc fair...n a webcam...but then i kind of gave d webcam to joshua as he kind of loves it so much...had a good time chattin wif sis,her bf n dad on sunday night after dinner.. i really dunno wad else to type..prob coz i'm thinkin bout my books..alright ppl..im goin off...gonna study then go to bed...ru:u better wake up tomorrow...i'm craving for tennis..LoL..wat a way to put it...also out breakfast...don't leave me alone playing with sir...yeah....im startin to crave for food again...that's probably coz i hv someone to feast with me soon!!!...i miss you gurls....ru n sara!...sara:i haven't seen u for .......cant remember...n i need to think...so that's LONG k???? i think d last was when ru's car broke down n then we fetch u for ice cream at swensens....that's long!!!!alright c u all around....hv a blessed night!O Lord...protect n bless all my loved ones....cover them with Thy love.....hugsss...i love you!

I'm Awake.....

well..it's 1am...actually went to bed around 1o+ jus now after reading like a quarter of one book..i had a good day..should i call it good?hmm..guess so..woke up n was thinking if i should go for class....i went n found out tht there's a test..not bad...hehe..went to baptist bookstore n i got a book for myself...saw a few but i know i got to finish wat i have,bought a card for freeda n a book for pei theen as her bday gift..went to queensbay later...walked around for a while b4 i met Ru for lunch..saw things tht i wan...bday wish huh?well but then i dont think i wan it too...=)...bought a pair of sport shoes...hey Ru thanks for d company...i know i took quite a long time..but then im sure u enjoy my company too...hehehehe...drove bck for badminton...had a fun time..but kinda exhausting..then tennis..fun but prob i made myself too tired during badminton alr..then went for dinner at ananda bahwan...we shouldn eat tht much after our games next time..hehe..came home,bathe..i was too tired to blog....decided to read a book...suppose i'm goin to cont reading now..i hv quite a lot to do this weekend..got to.......
1)go to Gurney to cllect some docs from mum's friend and then pass it to mum...
2)go to dad's factory n get d CPU n send it to pg after 5.30pm..i think i'll bring Joshua for a movie..
3)planning to go to pc fair to get my speakers.....hopefully...
4)get d CPU bck to d factory at least by Sunday n get ethin done for d clerk by she starts work on Monday.. n d list goes on.....

im tired.....

Going into dreamland.....

I'm going to bed!not too bad a day after loads of tears jus now..hehe...manage to study quite a lot...but then still can be better...but i'll call it a day....sweet dreams ppl....

What's happiness??

i really wonder...honestly what is it that really makes me happy??prob tht would b my bday wish this year...i know i'm just letting my feelings,emotions or wateva flow...what do u expect me to do then??keep it to myself...i can't....i'm not that strong...don dwell...im trying to...but do u know how freakin hard is it?i wish tears could just say it all..but yet no...there's no point to even tear...eating??doesn't help...guess only sleeping does coz i wont think..there's really no one i could really allow myself to fall bck on...wish dad n mum could b d ones...but no...have i been trying to potray too much of a strong girl to them?will they accept my points of being weak?i only enjoy dat home in bm...but not anything besides that house which gives me a home feeling...many times when i'm at home it'll just be me....everyone is too busy with their lives..how am i suppose to move on from here...now with the fact of wat happened between me n freeda i dont feel like goin bck even more...well i would say only person i look forward to see is joshua..really wonder how people who has been in my position b4 moved on from where they r..wished one would jus come teach me d way...goin to college freaks me out at times...probably where i wanna b is just my bed...that's d only thing i can fall back on...=)..i'm weak now...extremely weak...

Here is love,vast as the ocean...

that's d song that i'm listening to now..reminds me a lot of 2 years back...i think it's may 2005....anyway i locked myself out of my room with my house n room key in my room..n it's d second time coz i did that yesterday n i manage to open but not for today...so i was in the dining area till 2.30pm when sis came n open d grill door for me then i called the lock smith..it's was sickening coz i really wanted to go for my lectures..but thanks to a few people who kept me occupied with msgs..things is not easy n i wish i dont have emotions..haha..okie i'm crapping..well i manage to study but yet i'm not satisfied..guess sometimes i expect too much n i stress myself out of ethin even b4 i could do anything..that's bad...feeling empty..never really like to listen to songs i've heard b4..hehe i just clicked onto another song tho it's sung by d same person...Pastor Prince.hehe..talking bout him i miss Singapore..i'm definitely going there soon!probably i should jus ask that for my bday gift..=)..it's sickening when things turns out shitty between best friends..even if it's just close friends..once u we're the bestest frens but in just a glimpse you've became strangers...Lord why does all these has to happen?yeah i wish n it's a wish that life could really be just beautiful with every beautiful thing in it...why can't things be simple...i'm searching..wish someone could jus talk to me now n talk sense into me or wateva...there r just so many questions in me..i know not all can be answered but at least one or two...it's gonna do me much good...i'm sick of all my emotions...all d previous posts bout how i feel...yeah i do jump from one thing to another...frens first...when i felt i've troubled one too much i tend to look for another..n when i felt i've troubled all of them i came to my blog..right now i feel i've typed too much in my blog...n im looking for somewhere else..=)...feeling vulnerable i guess coz i was never like this..i used to be a strong gurl..a gurl who knows what she wants n where she's going...n she knows she'll get there...many said i've changed..good n bad ways...i dunno who i am....but only His beloved child that's all d assurance i have right now..but yet i've failed him so many times...my lovely frens around me...i know u all hv heard enough of all these...im tired what more to say u all...im sorry for all these...i just got to pull myself up...i dunno how but i will n i am going to....it's freakin hard...hate it when i feel vulnerable...someone even said i've died...have i really changed that much??

The Miles....

makes me stronger...hehe..i cant think of a title to put...right now im having mixed feelings..happy,worried...missin someone..that's definite..LoL...okie...i had a lovely weekend..a great start to d month of April...but d thing is i can't wait for May to come for some reasons...but yet when May comes june will come n my exam is then..but yet after my exam there's surely something to look forward to...People,i had a weekend eating n eating...but i did enjoyed myself to d fullest...lazy to blog d.....got to mop my room now....c yah...take care ppl!