What's within........

Sometimes in life there's none that u can really rely on...even if they're d closest to you..they can be there many times but not at all times....that's life...but yet not being there is okie at least it's better than making u feel terrible..when one expects from you n you try ur very best to fulfill all tht u can do tho u know they're not doing their part n still at the end of the day ur the one who feels that knife stabbed right into ur heart...n yet u learn to forgive n forget n to move on despite the disappointments again n again..sometimes they've pulled u so low that u try to climb up again...but yet they're not to be blamed coz u allowed yourself to be pulled down..times like tht or i would say every second it's only God who can be the One u gv everything to....ur faithur heart,ur love,ur joy,ur happiness,yourself...coz if u were to simply give it to anyone it'll be abused..but rather when you give ethin to God He'll turn ethin out for good..tho it's hard to see sometimes when u're stuck there but when u look back one day you'll smile...=)

many times those who affect you most are those you love most..n that's life again...jus try not to get too affected but tht's a lil hard for me coz when i love i love...that goes the same for those who may not be tht close to me now but once was rather close to me...jus tht many times humans tend to take things for granted..there r things that i take for granted too....we're jus not perfect...=)

n after trashin all these out....u'll learn to love again..actually i'm quite amazed at how i can love..hehe...for example my mum...tho i get really frustrated sometimes but my heart softens everytime...yeah sometimes it's not too good as it affects me n disturbs my plans but then still she's my mum...without her there's no me..wish sometimes she'll understand better....wish sometimes she could jus relax herself more rather than keep on achieving....it's good to achieve in life but when things in ur life are neglected especially yourself then it's no good..that's what i think...but i can't blame her coz she has her own sets of stuffs to deal with....i just got to do what i can but what i can is easy to say..btw MUMMY I LOVE YOU!!!n it's growing each day...hehe..awww n i miss dad n bro..haha...coz sometimes i'll try to ethin...hehe..n end up stressing myself up....guess i just got to rest n let the Lord be in control...yeah sometimes we humans think we're smart enough to do ethin...but come on ppl...we hv to admit that many things only God can settle it for us..this doesn't mean we start sitting n get lazy..we do what we should do n the Lord will make all things turn out for good...n it's really important to play ur individual parts well coz if u don't another person got to do more....n eventually they'll get tired...but i thank God that i hv a loving Heavenly Father like Him...who's always there to take all my nonsense..hehe..n replaces them with His love n peace...yeah i'm try to run too fast in areas that i should just go the normal speed n that's eating up my energy for other areas which are important too...buck up gurl!Jesus is with you.....hehe....it's been a long time since i really trash out what's within me,my thoughts,my feelings....n that's all for now....got to go get ready n fetch d princess Sara now...hehe.....

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies, You anoint my head with oil,my cup runs over.Surely goodness n mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever..Amen!