What's within........

Sometimes in life there's none that u can really rely on...even if they're d closest to you..they can be there many times but not at all times....that's life...but yet not being there is okie at least it's better than making u feel terrible..when one expects from you n you try ur very best to fulfill all tht u can do tho u know they're not doing their part n still at the end of the day ur the one who feels that knife stabbed right into ur heart...n yet u learn to forgive n forget n to move on despite the disappointments again n again..sometimes they've pulled u so low that u try to climb up again...but yet they're not to be blamed coz u allowed yourself to be pulled down..times like tht or i would say every second it's only God who can be the One u gv everything to....ur faithur heart,ur love,ur joy,ur happiness,yourself...coz if u were to simply give it to anyone it'll be abused..but rather when you give ethin to God He'll turn ethin out for good..tho it's hard to see sometimes when u're stuck there but when u look back one day you'll smile...=)

many times those who affect you most are those you love most..n that's life again...jus try not to get too affected but tht's a lil hard for me coz when i love i love...that goes the same for those who may not be tht close to me now but once was rather close to me...jus tht many times humans tend to take things for granted..there r things that i take for granted too....we're jus not perfect...=)

n after trashin all these out....u'll learn to love again..actually i'm quite amazed at how i can love..hehe...for example my mum...tho i get really frustrated sometimes but my heart softens everytime...yeah sometimes it's not too good as it affects me n disturbs my plans but then still she's my mum...without her there's no me..wish sometimes she'll understand better....wish sometimes she could jus relax herself more rather than keep on achieving....it's good to achieve in life but when things in ur life are neglected especially yourself then it's no good..that's what i think...but i can't blame her coz she has her own sets of stuffs to deal with....i just got to do what i can but what i can is easy to say..btw MUMMY I LOVE YOU!!!n it's growing each day...hehe..awww n i miss dad n bro..haha...coz sometimes i'll try to ethin...hehe..n end up stressing myself up....guess i just got to rest n let the Lord be in control...yeah sometimes we humans think we're smart enough to do ethin...but come on ppl...we hv to admit that many things only God can settle it for us..this doesn't mean we start sitting n get lazy..we do what we should do n the Lord will make all things turn out for good...n it's really important to play ur individual parts well coz if u don't another person got to do more....n eventually they'll get tired...but i thank God that i hv a loving Heavenly Father like Him...who's always there to take all my nonsense..hehe..n replaces them with His love n peace...yeah i'm try to run too fast in areas that i should just go the normal speed n that's eating up my energy for other areas which are important too...buck up gurl!Jesus is with you.....hehe....it's been a long time since i really trash out what's within me,my thoughts,my feelings....n that's all for now....got to go get ready n fetch d princess Sara now...hehe.....

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies, You anoint my head with oil,my cup runs over.Surely goodness n mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever..Amen!

A sense of rest.....

rest...hmmm...d inner one i guess coz i only slept like 3 hours..woke up at 5.30am..was tryin to sleep but i couldn't so i started sorting out my notes..n then i realised i forgot my timetable,left it in d car n also there's a bag of luggage that i need to bring up....so went down n when i was on my way up,in d lift my mind was wanderin around....bout some scary stuffs....prob coz it's still dark n d car park was really dark..then when the lift opened,stood a very fair man...smart looking but i freaked out..prob coz i was wanderin ,remember?n also i never expected someone to be waiting for d lift ler..=)..then i continued sorting out my notes n planning for d next half of the year..glad tht i did something this morning as i was afraid i'll procrastinate...thank God!yeah i might take a nap...but then i'm gonna read my Bible first...listening to this song titled Psalms 91..lovely one....
here's d lyrics ...

Lord,we thank You that in You there's safety,there's protection,Lord i want to thank You that my family is safe in You,Lord everywhere we go,Whatever we do,Lord You prosper us coz we're you're beloveds!Thank You Lord.... I will dwell in the sacred place of the Most High
I will stay in the shadow of Your wings
For Lord You are My Refuge,my Tower of Strength
My hope is in You
Secure i stand
You will deliever me
Your truth will be my shield
Jesus You cover me in Your love
No evil no terror no arrow no plague shall ever come near me
For You are my safety
My hiding place
Jesus i trust in You
...don't you think this song is really lovely..well if u hear the song it's even nicer...=)....
God bless you all with a blessed day ahead full of His grace,favour n blessings...love You all...esp my Daddy,Mummy,Sis,Bro n Joshua...grannies n grandpas,uncles n aunties,couz,Darren<3,freeda>

Started with cleaning...ended with .......

Well...i cleaned my room today..that includes wardrobe,drawers n entire room ler...it's super neat now..esp my ward robe..got ethin into boxes so when i shift out end of this year it'll be easier..i wish i could talk to someone now..but i guess it's not possible coz it's like almost 2am.err...besides that i was blowing my nose all the way thru..wad to do i'm sensitive to dust =)..still got my notes to sort out tomorrow..i actually cleaned till 7.30pm n got ready to go to Serena's place to pick her up...then she called n say Alvin will drop her...so i drove to Sara's place..thank God or else i'm gonna wait for so long...hehe...thanks for d souveniers dear!n Ru thanks for coffee..we had a great time catchin up n chattin...still got lots to go tomorrow...btw Mian i enjoyed ur company...ur one great girl tho this is my second outing with you..hehe..mum called n i kind of had a slight arguement with her..im feeling bad now...=(..i think i'll msg her n apologize...i'm feeling so awake..but im not feeling too good either probably coz of d issue with mum..but anyways i'm gonna hv a lovely n blessed day ahead tomorrow...God bless my day...hehe...just read my Bible..thinking bout God...i'm feeling sleepy...hehe..that's not a bad thing you know....try talking to Him when u can't sleep...pray or wadeva....n u'll find urself snoring...hehe..alright...till then i got to try sleep...=p..goodnight ppl...hugssss...

I'm back!!!...hehehe....

It's been a long time since i last blogged...seems like Yih Ling is really out of reach..well not really if you call me...but then still i'm gonna blog more now....probably because Darren is seriously going back to Malacca..besides that i'm also not running around with camps,family outings etc....coz my new sem is startin this coming Monday...currently listening to some songs by New Creation Church...always reminds me of a year ago...when i felt so lonely but yet God was always there to fill that loneliness..n these songs reminds me of the calm who always rests in the peace of the Lord n in His love....guess i got to get back on track...(not to say i'm out of track)...i'd put it in a way that these songs right now reminds me n motivates me to soar higher with the grace of God..guess i'll feel rather weird coz my time for the last whole month seems to be rather routine n now there r some changes...but i have this strong feeling that i'll cope with it well n gonna adapt to it extremely fast..=)..also these few days will be catch up with my dear friends Sara,Ru and Serena...not forgetting Shiuh Fenq n all those leaving like Iong Ling etc...also not forgetting someone that i've somehow neglected...Freeda..hehe...sorry ya dear..told u i'll surely catch up....i know u'll have a lot to say bout this....
n another thing i got to do these few days r cleaning my room...throwing rubbish out n get ready for d new sem...=)..lectures starts on Tuesday...so i have like Sunday n Monday...from Tuesday onwards i got to go back to BM almost everynight coz mum will be in KL till Friday.but it'll be good coz i can go out with Ru n Sf,and also hang out at grannie's place....i miss her..spent sometime in her house just now n was having a lovely time chatting with her,uncles n aunty...also went cycling with my couzs jus now...n i owe joshua swimming n ping pong...wow...that's quite a lot of stuffs..n not forgetting to see Freeda!=p..
By the way,this is gonna be my last sem in penang before i go down to KL next year...so i'm really gonna gv my best in it...tho i may fall but it's time to rise up...=x...
Oh ya...my great grandma passed away peacefully last last Friday..she's 91..i was reminded of somethin...better appreciate everyone around you...esp those who r elderly....that made me think how can i make my grannies n grandpa happier...n also those that i love....
i think that's all for now..got to sleep n wake up for church tomorrow...

this is part of one of d songs...hehe...
Lift me up from my fears n shame,In Your presence i'll ever sing,I'll forever sing Your praise,
King of glory my Lord my Life,You have won my heart,In Your presence i'll ever sing,i'll forever sing Your praise,You're worthy to be praised,so wonderful my King of glory,holy is Your name,Mighty God who have saved me...

Lord unveil Your face as i worship You,reveal Your majesty,touch my heart anew,Lord unveil my eyes to see Your glorious truth,the love You give so free has drawn my heart to You,I can't help but love You more,n more n more i see how much i mean to You,Jesus i can't help but love You more,the more n more i see,i fall in love with You more n more..

Lastly, this is specially to Darren,thanks for ethin =)..n have a safe n blessed trip back..God's divine protection be upon you..His love surrounds you always..keep close to Him..

Dearest Sara, the Lord protects you n grant you a blessed trip back into our arms...hehehe..

n the piggie Freeda...all the very best in tomorrow's match..Win k!!!hahaha...God bless you...im sure you'll win.....n i'll get my treat..

okie...love you all my beloveds!huggiesssss n sweet dreams... walk closely to God n you'll be amazed ..........God abundant blessing be upon you all.....

I'm kind of.........

i really dunno wat word to use..well dunno wat has happened tho...but i guess i miss those times when i blogged often..haha...what am i talking here...i'm looking forward to d next half of d year!looking forward to going for classes again...looking forward to get things organized..looking forward for lots of stuffs..i think i do need sometime to quieten down myself n think..n yet not think too much....gonna go study now....=p

It's been daysssss since i last blogged...

Well well...should i say many things happened?kind of tho...Cf camp,Rangers Camp,Exams,Joshua's birthday,outings with Joshua,Darren,Family......
which one to say first...well i m kind of lazy to type tho....really dunno wat to say....guess i prefer to talk rather than type.......till then..will blog when i feel like it....=x...oh yeah...Ru,Sara,Serena,Mandy n others...do take care!=pGod bless!