Specially dedicated for my aunt,God's gracious hand be upon you n He make whole n well..may the Lord take away all ur pain n grant you peace instead..peace from the Prince of Peace..even as you're alone,His love surrounds you...tho fear might be around you or all kinds of thots may overrule u..but yet the Lord is control,you're always in my prayers i know He loves you extremely much.Get well extremely soon!Let not your heart be troubled but in ethin by prayer n supplication let your requests be made known to God...may the Lord grant you sweet n lovely dreams even tonight as you sleep...may His love melt away all that's not too nice...love you very much....Lord.bless my aunt..=)thank You...

im going off to bed soon now....

Enjoying every bit of it...

i seriously dunno what title to put whenever it comes to blogging..guess i'll start from 2days bck which is thursday...after class i went straight for tennis then came bck n bathe..wasn't feeling too good..had some time alone n was wondering where to go for dinner..so i ended up in Nandos gurney alone....guess what when my food came there's this guy walking out of nandos...n it's jerry...he practically accompanied me thru d whole meal..hehe...he's seriously nice!err...didn hv much time tho coz doreen was waiting for him...i dunno her well tho..jus hie n bye...after tht i drove bck to bm..on my way bck i was craving for burger...bought one for mum too...came bck didn do much rested early...woke up pretty late on friday..hang around d house..chit chatted with my 6th aunt n Eustace..then i head off to CBM for cf meeting..great worship,was praying for the coming camp n also we kind of put the girls n guys into groups..n discussed some other stuffs..then head home study till night n went to bed...woke up pretty early today..Joshua was awake,too.We kind of studied together..went for yam rice then came bck home n study...studied till Joshua's tution...fetch him for tution then came home n rest for a while...gonna bathe n study again...haha...life's bout studying now...=p...wil be kind of busy d coming week but i'm seriously looking forward for it!alright guess tht's it for now..take care ppl...God bless!

drowning myself.....

A New DAy

Let there be change that is self evident around me that could only be explained as a miracle from God.....

Proverbs 10:22 The blessing of the Lord makes one rich, And He adds no sorrow with it.

HV a lovely day people n be blessed by the Lord..His grace be multiplied in your lives!Hugs

In life...

there are those who cherish you like no other...but it's hard to find.....
there are those whom you may be so special at one point in their life...
there are also those whom you cherish but yet they don really know ........
wateva it is life moves on......you just got to look at those around you n continue loving them despite it all n walk ahead....they might not understand today but yet somehow,someday they will.......sometimes family are those tht you should hold closest to..no matter where you are or who you've bcome they'll still be there for you esp mums n dads...

So, Dad n Mum..thanks for ethin that you've done for me n most of all thanks for loving me...there's no words that i could say to thank you both for all that you've showered me with...it's more than d material things....just too much to say.......

- Take time to count our blessings, stop n consider God's wonders...you'll be amazed...-

N cherish those around you b4 it's too late...=)

Missing Christmas....

i know this is sudden....what to do?i'm currently listening to the song ' Let It Be Christmas'..woke up at 8am this morning..tho i had only like 6 hours of sleep yet i feel really refreshed...am happy =)..got myself ready n drove to d tennis court..was really early as in 8.40am when tennis only starts at 9am,so i read my bible while waiting..This early morn sis sent me 3 messages..accordingly it's about dad n dat lady..from d msgs she was asking dad not to let her go saying tht she even neglected her children for my dad n she never did anything wrong to my family n my mum..well well....n also saying tht how can my dad let things go like tht...well my dear fellow readers of my blog..i'm just asking tht all of us come in a word of prayer asking God for the best solution..i tried all ways these 4 years but non seem to work...some worked for a little while n yet it went bck to d same...so i'm just asking Lord tht You guide me n grant me all the wisdom i need as in when to speak,what to speak,when to do what i need to do n wat to do..i know that You're in control of d whole situation..it is in Your word that when 2 persons are married they're considered as one n it is never Your will/desire to see a marriage broken.i stand upon Your word claiming it for my mum n dad's situation.I ask for Your grace in all that we do..n also that unity will be among all of us in this family.Restore this family O Lord...Thank You for ethin...Let me not forget Your power..for You can do anything...n not forget Your purpose for You're up to something in my life,Your presence for You're always near,Your sovereignty for You're always in control of every situation,Your peace that exceeds my understanding..There's nothing much tht i can do or i would say i don even know what to do coz what i do will not work...but only what You tell me to do...i'm resting in You =)hehe.....oh yeah n i pray for ur unconditional love to shower mummy n daddy tht somehow or rather ethin will jus b fine...yeah i may sound naive but yet i'm still believing for a miracle..i'm moving on with life not tht i'm not but yet there's still tht faith there believing tht God will not disappoint me...In Your time O Lord all things are made beautiful...that's what You said in Your word ,too..hehe..grant me a blessed day ahead..even as i study,i ask that You help me to understand n bring into remembrance all that i've studied whenever i need it..exams etc...n that i'll learn to rest in You more n more n to trust You more n more...protect my loved ones n bless them too!In Jesus most precious name i pray..AMEN!..

-hey ppl...i understand tht my posts sometimes r kind of personal...but who knows it might touch lives...hehe..not tht im perasaan k...but anyway it's my blog wat..hehe....okie...hope tht some of it does bless everyone of u in some ways...-Life is much more than winning for ourselves,it's helping others to win even if we have to slow down..A CANDLE LOSSES NOTHING IF IT IS USED TO LIGHT ANOTHER ONE...

-today is a lovely day...cherish it n live it as tho it were the last...

*In Your love i will rest,In Your love i will find the strength to move on n to walk thru each day towards my destiny that You've planned for me...*

For i know the plans i have for you, says the Lord, plans of good n not of evil that gives you a future and a hope!!

clouded with facts n numbers....

a lil more to go n i'm off to bed...i'm seriously looking forward for next week to come....
-Darren's coming bck..... tht speaks a lot huh?hehe =)..
-CF Camp is next weekend....
-Rangers camp is next next week...

hv been at home d whole day studying...not much seriously..could've done more but i shall not stress myself too much...can do more tomorrow..=)..suddenly having this positive feeling....
had 2 buns n 1 egg tart...didn't really plan to hv dinner till i got a phone call...err thanks anyway..i had fried noodles..not too bad...i miss home...coz of d fruit juice..=p..okie i know im a lil crazy right here...might be having lunch with sis n mum tomorrow....

I'm seriously looking forward to CF Camp...it's just like a week n a half away =)... n really looking forward for u to come bck too...aww..miss u ,u know...hehe..

Oh yea n Sara i hope ur doing well there...don't think too much just got to be more careful next time..huggggggssssssss for you...

Ru...u better go to another doctor n check up...this is not good k....seriously...i don't wanna nag too much but..u know ler..it's for ur own good...

people...i'm craving for coffee butter.....n Darren,i'm craving for cockles....escargot too!!!!

Awwwww.......i feel like....

smashin somethin,killin someone..hahhahaa..tht's jus d extreme...k..im crappin....im currently freakin stressed...exams........in a month but then still...i think im a lil crazy...i'm stressing myself too much!!!!

What a day....

i woke up only when my tennis coach called me...that's sad...tennis lesson is at 7.30,he called me at 7.39 n i got there only at 8am...that's not that bad..what's worse is i went hiking with dad yesterday n i forgot my sport shoes...so i jus grab a pair of very casual shoes totally not for any kind of sports..started playing..not tht bad..but then d right sole came out....then i had to bear with it till d second almost came out..got no choice then i told d coach..he lend me his shoes...which was like one size bigger i think....n i think it's badminton shoes....oh God...bless my day....hehehehehe....i'm currently watchin d movie how to lose a guy in 10 days..hehehehe

I'm Breaking Down....

yes i am!!!

Draw me close to YOU...

Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear you say that i'm Your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
Coz nothing else could take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to You

You're all i want
You're all i ever needed
You're all i want
Help me know You are near...

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that i'm Your friend
You are my desire
No one else will do
Coz nothing else could take ur place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to You......

You're all i want
You're all i ever needed
You're all i want
Help me know You are near......

In His love we're made strong..i shall end this with my prayers for everyone..
Dad n Mum-Lord i pray that you grant them protection in their goin ins n goin outs..let Your angels surround them n bless this day n every single day of their lives..let Your peace enfold around their lives...let Your love draw them back to one another..=)

Sis-Lord i pray for Your wisdom which is d most precious thing to be with her..may You fill her with much wisdom till it overflows...

Bro-O Lord grant him remembrance even as he sits for his exam today...thank You for Thy love upon His life...

Joshua-Lord,i know that there's no one who could guide him better than You..on this day that i commit him unto Thy loving hands asking You to protect him,guide him,love him,teach him n take care of him in ethin...thanks!=)

Darren- My dearest DAddy n Heaven..thank You for bringing him into my life...bless this relationship of ours..that i come before you n ask that You guide us in all that we do..let ethin we do in our lives be a blessing to everyone around us n grant Him patience..=)..uYour joy n peace..much much wisdom too....thank You Lord....shower Your love upon him that that love will overflow to me...hehehe..jus jk..but serious!shower Your unconditional love upon him...

Freeda-Lord bless her with a safe journey bck to Penang...n in all that she does let the Holy Spirit bring her higher..hold her hands even as she walk thru this beautiful journey of life...DEar...ur goin really high!!!!hehe..hugs hugs

Ruverny- This gurl is turning 20 soon..i pray that You prepare a lovely gift for her....i'm sure d gift is ready alr.....=)thank You Lord

Sara- even as she's in a foreign land,i'm sure You are there with her...(gurl remember that God is with You even when others aren't) n that You guide this gurl in Your ways n bring her to d highest place....let her soar above ethin in life...Even youths shall faint and be weary,and young men shall utterly fall,But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength,they shall mount up with wings like eagles,they shall run n not feel weary,they shall walk n not faint Isaiah 40:30-31..this verse is for you dear girl!

grandmas,grandpa,aunties,uncles,couzs,friends...protect them Lord i ask of you...

n for myself..i pray that You draw me closer to You..despite the dryness i feel i know there's always a season in life like what King Solomon says..the dry season will be over n the one awaiting will be one with much..i dunno wat but i'm sure it's much blessings ..hehe...coz You're a good good God..even as i study grant me lots of remembrance n help me understand too...alright till then..i got to get bck to my books alr...love you MOST!

in JESUS most precious name i pray..AMEN!
(come on ppl who read this agreee with me too...for the Lord says when 2 or more agree in His name it shall be done)

n to everyone in my life...i have to tell u guys,gurls,little ones...i love you all very very much...esp those tht i haven't been telling lately...=)

have a lovely day everyone!GOD bless...

My thoughts......

words unspoken,feelings unexpressed...exhaustion unknown....d cuts....d wounds...yet in life there are seasons..after this will be another....i guess i like end of winter to spring...i really miss melbourne...

Weird sleeping time....

i've been sleeping at odd hours lately...i dunno why..when it comes to midnight,i'll feel so awake,i dunno why..this is no good..anyway thanks for waking me up this morn,Ru.came bck after tennis n slept..then went for dental,bought d tea leaves tht dad wanted...went to coffee butter all alone,pay maxis bill n headed home..i actually turn into a road in front of a police car without my safety belt on..=x....n also maxis is sickening...actually i seriously prefer digi just that there r a few reasons for me to use maxis or not i'm seriously not gonna use maxis...the operators r so duhhhh...imagine lar i was asking them where i can pay my bills...they don even know tht there's a maxis centre in autocity n she was telling me the one at northam closes at 8pm...i went there n it's closed....thank God i'm smart enough or i should say by the wisdom tht God has given me..hehe...i went to gurney n there's an autorized dealer there too..sicko maxis...=p...digi is like so freaki n efficient lar...errr...nothing much....i'm gonna b busy studying tonight...freeda is coming bck tomorrow....hehehehehehhehee....my ice wine is coming too....LoL....

....wishin.....

u should know what i'm wishing right?=p....don't be too stress with ur studies k...The Lord grant you lots of wisdom n remembrance..His peace fills you n surrounds u always...May the Lord shower you ith His glorious presence n love....luv ya!=)..i dunno y but i don think i have any pics of u that is really nice....hehhee...but i think this is not too bad...anyway do take good care of urself in Malacca ya!don't start pigging too much on d chocs...hugsss...

I MISS YOU TOO!!!!

Awwwww...

I MISS YOU!!!!!!!saw this pic in my hp so uploaded it..hehe...hopefully u'll bring bck my ice wine..hehehe..pretty right this gurl here...haha..err also dear ar..where r u looking ar?she's jus too obsessed wif d sushissssss........k...c u soon!The Lord protects you n grant u a safe n lovely journey bck to Penang...hahaa....d place with d best food.well actually aus food not bad too..but dear oh dear...come bck soon k...hahahaha...im a lil crazy here after studyin...

D Jewels of my life....=)

Hey ppl out there u know,there's a few jewels in my life n i'm gonna talk bout 2 of them right now..hehe...Sara n Ruverny..
-knew Sara when Ru introduced her to me..it's been more than a year!n she's Darren's couz..hehe..also gurl..thank u so so much for listening n being there.. guess i talk to her when things r crucial or i'm almost dead..haha...but anyway just got to let u know tht despite d distance we all still do care for u freakin much back here k..i still do talk to Darren bout you..n we shall hang out when ur back k..=)..n also God loves you extremely much..despite d foreign land,i pray that He'll always protect u,im sure He will that everywhere u go n everyone u meet,His favour will be upon you..His love n grace fills you n surround you,His perfect peace guides you n His presence u may dwell all d days of life..love you n hv a blessed day!Jesus love you n i love you too!dunno why but i guess wanna share this song with you..it's by Don Moen
..God will make a way where there seems to be no way,He works in ways u cannot see He will make a way for you,He will be your guide hold you closely to His side,With love n strength for each new day He will make a way..by the roadway in the wilderness He'll lead you,rivers in the desert will you see,heaven n earth will fade but His love will still remain,He will do something new today!Peace of the Lord be with you always n thanks for encouragin me in my walk with Him...im still waitin for u to come bck for tennis...hehehee

-RU!!!!that's wad i call her....gonna be a bday girl soon..hehe...it's been like 7years shared practic ally most of my life...i mean secrets..haha..she's a fren u know who will always be there despite d rain/shine...=)....will make sure u hv a blast on ur bday....hehe....thanks for always listenin to my craps...i think i really did bother u freakin much coz of dat..i'm missin our times bck in form 5 when we went for d express art class...hahhahaha...gurl...i rreally thank God for you....n ur in m prayers too..heheheh....c u soon!looking forward for tennis wif u too like tomorrow.....LoL

okie...to u both!thank u so much....=p..im goin to bed

i am pissed..i am hurt..i'm trying to accept d fact,but yet i still find it so hard..how can d whole family b united again..yeah tan yih ling is goin thru d same old thing..braggin n naggin n crappin..but it's really hard for me to accept it..yes i know many ppl has worst situations than me..i am trying k..i am..i wish i could..i'm not a superwoman n i can never be one..i wish i could just fall on somewhere..n i know that it's only God.. i hurts me pretty much seein those around me having go thru wat i caused....or goin thru hurts jus coz of what i've done...yet i dunno wat i can do to help..i find no way but to shut my mind...shut my feelings n sleep...mummy i wished ur at home more often..daddy i wished u n mum could jus work somethin out or talk things out..i'm tired n sick of all these aren't u both?it hurts me seein u both this way.. i'm broken..i can't hold bck my tears anymore....probably coz 4years bck my world was perfect n it came crashin down..i dunno how to walk anymore...there's jus no unity...im TIRED!i'm SAD...

in d darkness tht i am right now...on a bed of thoughts....wishing tht there were raindrops falling...thoughts n memories running all along.....empty tht's what i feel...who could ever fill this emptiness from within...only the Mighty ONe..i ask of You..bring me to where You are..show me a glimpse of you..i'm lost in this world...lost in my thoughts...lost in my feelings...everything seems so different..everyone seems like a stranger..yet it's love tht's on my mind..only You could understand...no one else will...i feel like i haven't done my best..i haven't given my all..let me fall.................................................................................................catch me n let me drown in ur love...

Adorable biscuits...

right now i'm munching on a packet of biscuit tht my dad got joshua from kl..he got it from marks n spencer...has various shapes n sizes of animals...really adorable k...i like d rabbit n d hippo..=)...ru thanks for d msg n d concern tho...but i'm okie...jus a lil weird that is i can't seem to sleep at night but i can sleep in d day!i'm wondering if i should go for tennis/hiking/swimming n sauna....what do u think?hehe...jus had lunch..hehe...some soupy stuffs...i'm going swimmin n sauna later...hehe...coz joshua n my lil couzs wanna go...lazy to blog d....hv a lovely day ya everyone!

When......

when i'm afraid
all i need is your voice

when i'm alone
all i need is to imagine u here

when i'm down
all i need is to think of you

when i'm lost
all i need is to remember your words

when i'm happy
all i need is to be lost in you

when i've reached the finish line
all i need is to see u standing there

when i don't want to carry on
all i need is your smile

when i miss you
all i need is to think of our times together

when i think of you
i just cant stop thanking God for you!

random thoughts...random feelings....i'm goin off to bed....=)

I went swimming!!

woke up at around 10+..went for lunch with Pei Theen..went for yam rice at kkm..it was delicious!!then sent her home..we bought rojak too..got apacket for 6th aunt n joshua..i always feel stress when i'm back in penang..right now there's so much to do..came bck went online to read some stuffs..then i sent joshua for tution,went for a drink with ru n pick joshua up from tution,head off to bm country club for swimmin..saw some guys play tennis..i miss playin tennis..it's been such a long time since i last went swimmin..then i went for suana.i really enjoyed suana.i think i'm goin for tht every weekend now...i'll probably go hiking tomorrow..goin to do revision with joshua tomorrow as his exam is just around d corner..n i'm gonna study myself too..goin church tomorrow morning..i'm a lil exhausted..it's only my 1st day bck..sometimes i wonder why..but yet i just got to be strong..am i suppose to just surpress ethin or wat?tht's no way but to just walk forward..guess all this is making me a stronger person...i wanna b stronger but not harder =)..prob i should jus hv some time alone tonight..wish ru could jus come over n stay..at least we can talk..i feel a lil empty..........chao!~

i'm bck

i'm bck from malacca!around 8 hours on d bus...but then it's not tht bad coz i slept almost all d way bck..ru picked me up..thanks gurl!so much!went for food at pelita then dropped by shiuh fenq's working place..thought i could find french toast but sadly they don hv =(...im kind of sleepy now tho!will blog tomorrow...LoL

Life is full of surprises..God brings all of them....

When u cant see any possibility of going ahead,God will always open doors as long as u look to Him .. tho u may think He's so far away yet He's just very near..carrying you thru every single step you take..i had a good break..goin bck to penang tomorrow..then it's time to study again..for my exam that's in june...just a month away but yet i'm really looking forward to june n d months ahead..listening to some lovely songs while i'm blogging right now..i just finished reading a book written by Robin McGraw..'Inside My Heart..choosing to live with passion n purpose'..really a very nice book..a book that i wish i'll never finish reading but yet like what Darren says she only has one life n there's a limit to how much she can write bout her life..right now i'm reading another book by John Lee..'Great by 24'.lots of books to finishtill end of this year..i'm loving reading right now which is really a good thing coz by reading you gain so much knowledge..it's always good to take a short break.u don't get so caught up by ethin n u learn to step bck n watch n u do make better decisions...jus tht i missed tennis d whole of this week..

Things to do when i'm bck :
-play tennis as often as i can..at least twice a week
-bring joshua for swimming or badminton once a week
-study..that's a must
-plan for joshua's bday which is coming up...
-plan for 6th aunt's bday...thinkin of a surprise meal..
-get ru's bday gift...hehe..might owe u first girl...got to choose a nice one right??
-budgetsss...i'm kind of spendin a lil too much...
-pay bills...hp,streamyx,house phone,ins,rental...
-get joshua started on his revision for his exam
-cf camp
-rangers camp
-church...missin too many times alr..
-list goes on...hehe

i had a really good break....=)..u'll be amazed malacca is so windy...n cloudy...d sky is superb beautiful....i love to stare into d sky be it in d day or at night...during the day it's like blue sky with white clouds..night then there r stars..n thanks for all d time whe i've been disturbing you..=)..oh yea penangites..u ppl better appreciate penang food...right now i really really miss sakae sushi..i'm never going to sushi king again....it's so freakin not worth it n d service is bad...im pretty sure bout this...hehe...ru..i'll catch up with u pretty soon...miss u alr...hehe...till then ler....got to go read my book alr...n Freeda incase u check my blog...i miss you....remember my ice wine..hahahaha..hugss