Not done....

guess im not done with d previous blog..sometimes i wonder why am i so freakin weak...really feel like giving up right now...but i know i cant...it's not easy that's wat i'll say but others will say it's not hard either...i hv 2 agree.really wish i could just get all d facts into my brains right now..at least i could distract myself n stop my mind from wanderin ....ppl around me ..i know u all r just sick of seeing me this way...i really don wan...alright probably i'm just not trying hard enough...this is really pushing me hard....n i need to push myself hard...really wish i could play badminton wif someone as in i can just get myself tired n vent out ethin in the game...times like that i wish bro is around..hehe at least he can play wif me..4 years n i really wish i could shut off ethin....gurl gurl...it's just a small issue k...stop making it big..yeah...it's small..why am i so freakin emotional now...am i messing my life up further...which is d right way?i need guidance...i know i sound like a sicko now...wateva u call it....why is all this never ending...